Lord Jesus’ Grace – Nan Yu (main campus) – 2011-01-09

Lord Jesus’ Grace – Nan Yu (main campus) – 2011-01-09

How many trials and tribulations do we go through in life? How would we face tomorrow without Jesus’ love? Every seeks the true meaning of life, and I am one of those ordinary people.  I was an international student studying in the U.S. with my own money.  I had to start working to make ends meet.  My life was transient to say the least.  I had no idea if my studies would pay off, where my tuition would come from. Being a sheltered only child, I often wept and grumbled before God about how life was so difficult.

At this time, CBCSD started promoting the church building project. I sit at church and marvel at the beautiful architectural drawing of the new building. I attend the special prayer meetings and ask myself” what does the new church building project have to do with me?”  I have barely received my paycheck from the part time job, and I have no clue what tomorrow will hold. My tithing to the church may not even buy a single brick for the new building, but it’s my entire month’s grocery bill! I struggle in my heart about whether or not to give to the building project. A part of me says: Wait until I’ve graduated, when I have a real job. Everyone knows that you cannot afford to give, and God will understand.  Yet another voice in me reminds me of God’s word: I lift my eyes up, to the mountains, where does my help come from? My help comes from you, maker of heaven, creator of the earth!  God is all powerful and full of mercy, he watches over every second of our lives. Hasn’t God provided all that I needed even during this difficult time in my life? I see how God’s grace is sufficient, and how my faith is so small. I am compelled by His love to give towards the building project, to offer him in faith a small portion of what He’s given to me.

However, life is not a fairytale. Soon after I made the offering, I lost my job.  I cannot pay my rent nor my tuition, and I needed to borrow money from my friends. I couldn’t sleep and had no appetite, I was completely distraught. I sometimes wonder if God had left me? Was he not pleased with my offering? I’m often burdened with life, and I can’t understand God’s will, but His words remind me that He is the creator of the universe. I believe He controls everything that happens in my life. When there is only darkness, He gives me light.  God has been training and strengthening me  in this laboratory of life.  Praise God, I started another job recently taking care of elderly people. Even though life is still a challenge, and I have so much to learn, I know that God is walking with me. I am like an infant learning to put my faith in the Lord, to walk daily in His grace.